I know I am a day late, so here is a belated happy new year post to you:)
Last night, we had a quiet and peaceful dinner with relatives from the UK, and I was asked whether I had made my resolutions. The truth is, i haven't made any new year's resolutions this year because i was lazy to get my bum off the couch and start writing a list skeptical about the whole resolutions thingie and questioned myself on the significance of making resolutions that i probably will not fulfill anyway.
Instead of making a long list of resolutions for 2010, i thought i should reflect on what i have done in 2009, learn from the mistakes and try to make something more out of 2010.
2009 was like a rollercoaster ride for me when it came to schoolwork and grades. I was constantly obsessed with getting better grades and pushed myself multiple times harder to achieve an ideal grade. Which i never reached because i was never satisfied with my own progress. The jan/may semester's goal was to get through the dilemma on whether to continue with a honours year. The aug/nov semester's goal was to pull up my grade to be able to pursue my graduate studies. I was an emotional wreck too because there were many times i felt that nothing was working out and i would cave in easily (which was the first time for me because i could manage my feelings pretty well in the past). It was a neverending chase and during that one crazy year i hardly felt the exhaustion surprisingly.
The fatigue (both physical and mental) started coming in when i decided to stop work for two weeks and went on a short getaway to japan. I had more room for thoughts on my personal life by then, since nothing was on my mind but grades during my semesters. I reflected on what the past few months had done for me as a person, and to my horror, i realized i didn't really learn much. I did learn how to work and deal with difficult people when i was working in the lab. But that was it. It only revolved around my school life. I didn't have much personal development and frankly, i felt that it has affected many relationships that i have with some people who were once dear to me.
2010 marks a new start for me in terms of personal development. I am proud of my academic achievements that i have clinched last year, but this year i feel i should work on being a better person. I am still facing the same amount of stress, and what is worse i need to round up my application for graduate studies pretty soon. But that isn't an excuse for me to not work on my personal life, something which i have neglected very much for the past year. I need to make more time for the people close to me and also know how to deal with problems in a more mature manner.
On a positive note, i wish you a brand new fresh start to 2010 and remember to cherish the lessons you have learnt in 2009.
